Forgiveness makes chili better!

Tonight I went to the Prayer Chapel with all good intentions of taking pictures of my fellow students worshiping...mm hmm! Let me start with what we were discussing in class today...

Steve Rockmore was speaking on the Father Heart of God. Meaning, what a man/husband/father should be for his family, and if he is not certain aspects of provider, protector and priest...certain ramifications happen. (Please note, that women/mothers/wife play just as vital a role in this, but we were talking about fathers). Most of you all know, if not all of you...that I have the most loving, thoughtful, fantastic, super-duper dad in the whole world! So I really didn't know how to approach this subject, because he was speaking on subject that I didn't have any difficulty in. BUT...isn't God amazing, that through this subject He dealt with me on several other issues dealing with people??!! Ah! God is good. I came to realize that I had a root of unforgiveness, and bitterness towards certain people in my life that have caused me heartache and pain. None of this was prompted by anyone at all-only God.

So as I sat at a table making a little drawing of my pain (let me tell you, this was Spirit-led...I don't draw stick people very well!) But I knew it was the Holy Spirit, because I didn't have control over the pencils that were coloring on the sheet of paper. At one point I couldn't even write "I forgive", I literally couldn't. I started to weep. I kept writing. Weeping. It is so hard to forgive. It's much like an onion, it's coming off in layers.

Well, by the end of this little session I had with God, of forgiving myself, forgiving others, blah blah blah...I picked up that piece of paper and wrote over it in large charcoal..."I FORGIVE". It was so huge. I didn't even realize that I hadn't forgiven these people.

My forgiveness didn't come like a snap of the fingers. It's like an onion, and it's going to make me cry as God and I cut to the center. When it's all said and done, my onion will be added to a nice big crock-pot of chili and it will taste yummy! mmmmm.

Many blessings to you! May God find the ROOT of the unforgiveness in your life...then go and make some chili. Love and Blessings!

Kelley <><